Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Random thoughts and fears!

It's starting to hit me. We are going to have a baby....like soon! I now look down at my huge belly and get a little nervous about the thought of actually having to push this little boy out. I've even done this once before, but for some reason I'm terrified! Perhaps, it's because I have done this once before and this time I know what to expect.

I've been extra sensitive lately too...even more than usual, which if you know me at all is hard to believe. I have all kinds of emotions going through me at this point. Feelings of fear, and then those of complete excitement about finally getting to meet the new person that will be part of our family.

I'm feeling bad for Sam...his world is going to COMPLETELY change. I feel worried about him not getting attention or feeling like I've abandoned him! Then I start feeling sorry for the baby because I know he won't get as much attention as Sam did when he was a newborn! Ahhhh...what a dilemma!

I feel inadequate and stressed about the new responsibility that I'll have here so soon! Then I find myself worrying about dumb things like having time to clean the house and do the laundry with 2 kids. Is that even possible?? But then, thankfully, I'm usually able to stop and laugh at myself because there are families out there with FAR more children than me and they seem to manage just fine. But how do you all do it? Did you or do you have the same fears that I'm having?

It has been SO fun to pull out the baby clothes and get them all washed and ready for our new little guy. I really am thrilled about having a newborn again...just worried about adjusting to it all! Tell me it's not going to be that bad...please!

12 comments:

Brammer Family said...

Oh Linds! :) What you're feeling is totally normal. :) I had these same feelings before Ben came too. I felt guilty knowing Lily's life was going to change too. But it changed for the better.

You will get the hang of things. 2 kids is certainly a wake up call and a huge change, but you will love it. We're given one baby at time (usually) so we can get used to things one step at a time.

You will do great, I have no doubt. :)

joyce said...

Ahhhhh...I knew you were having a bad day yesterday...just wish I were there to spoil Sam!!...but...aren't you glad you have a brother and 2 sisters? Can you even imagine life as an only child? I guarantee you have enough love for 2 (or more) kids! Believe me....I felt the same way when Josh came along and rocked your world! I can't wait to meet him, too!!! xoxo

grandmaVerda/GrandpaLeon said...

Dearest Lindsay, Eric and Sam, I have no concerns at all for your success as a mom and dad. You both have set a wonderful example to all of the Jensen, Morgan, Dockter Families. Sam will be so happy to have a baby brother and he won't feel neglected, because you will know just how to involve him in the daily activities of the new baby brother. It is amazing, but love just seems to grow and expand and maybe it is because there will be more in the family to love the newest member, but it works.. I know. When our 6th was born, there were lots of baby tenders and good helpers so I didn't feel overburdened at all. Just blessed to have another beautiful, healthy baby boy. It is a miracle, but it works. I love you all. Always and forever, Grandma VERDA

Janie said...

When you bring that new little baby home, Sam will all of a sudden seem sooo big. And you will be amazed at the infinite love you are capable of. It's a little glimpse of heaven. You're awesome. Lots of love.

Kent and Leisy said...

if you get overwhelmed- PLEASE send sam over :) it makes my life a lot easier when Zeb has a playmate. And if you are already thrilled about having a newborn- then you'll be just fine! I've got to get past that point before I can even worry about keeping my house clean :)

Cynthia said...

How do people manage with more kids? Easy we just don't clean the house:)
I like you am not looking forward to all the laundry that will add up because of having a newborn. But at least we have washer and dryer in our homes and we don't have to go to coin laundry!

Ryan, Candace, Jack and Macie said...

I know it all seems overwhelming but it all works out. It does take a while to adjust to the two kid thing but it does happen and it is so much fun. You just have to realize that Sam is going to be fine and the new little one doesn't know how much attention Sam has gotten.

The Tate Family said...

How funny that I had the EXACT same fears! Sam will be fine, don't worry about him...at 2, he will MAKE you give him the attention he needs. Take advantage of the time you get to spend with your new little guy, like the hospital and nursing and when Sam takes his naps. And take advantage of when your baby naps as well....for Sam. Those moments will help you feel more balanced and aware of your children one on one! It's crazy, but amazing all at once! Sam will step into the role better than you expect! You'll do great!

nateandmaryannmendenhall said...

I completely know how you are feeling. I am still trying to get use to having 2 kids. It is so fun to have a new born again. The love is instant. Just like it was the first time. I will admit that it gets really, really crazy at times but I wouldn't have it any other way. We are so excited for you guys and can't wait to hear when he comes.

Cari said...

i'm having all the same fears and thoughts right now..but have a bit longer to worry about it than you! :) you are such a darling mom and cute family, i can't wait to hear all your tips at being a mom to two!! :)

Emilee said...

It works out, somehow. Just remember, when Sam has been booted as the baby of the family (He will suddenly look enormous, and you'll expect him to act like a big boy, and you'll get irritated when he acts like he needs attention because, well, he needs attention), and you feel so bad for him that you have just given him his best friend. Could he ask for better than a little brother?

I'm Ally said...

I have no kids, so I can only tell you that I think you are one of the best moms in the world. Top two, at least. The little guys are so lucky to have you and Eric as parents. And how about I come over there around Thanksgiving to help you give attention to Sam and Baby #2? Okay, great. I'll be there. I love you!

P.S. Hi Sam.